四年了,我还是老样子，一无所有~~~
现在因为一个疫情(Covid-19), 而被迫呆在家。
全世界因为这个病毒，而陷入恐慌和灾难。
人真的是太软弱了。
即使你有钱，也有可能没有机会花。
人总是为了生活而赚钱。我也不例外。
曾经的我，不觉得我会被金钱捆绑。但我错了，我发现我好像也陷入了这个陷阱了。
曾经的我，觉得我总是比他人高尚，他人好，他人也这么觉得，在某一些方面。
实际上，我什么都不会，是个无知的人，性情和个性古怪，敞开不了我的心，爱面子。
我是个丑陋的人。
想改变，却没有毅力。
总是觉得一切都定局了，不想花时间，不想去努力去改变。
无论是爱情，亲情，友情，信仰，工作等。
总是要他人来配合我，来顺从我，来方便我。
我真的是太自私了。
可我又懒惰做出改变，因为真的会很累。
可是心里有个声音叫我要做出改变。
该怎么办呢？？？
#脑里想什么就打什么
#如何改变我的人生
#如何过得有意义的生活
Monday, March 30, 2020
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
RANDoM2
I am always thinking why it is so unfair in this world. Need to work for others, do sth for others, who don't even know how it work. We need to do it, just because of his authority, his power....
Why can't I just get to do sth simple, sth I like, to make money, hence I can survive, can do what I want. What I want is enjoy the things I want to do, but financial is always the obstacle! What can I do to get away from this? Work normally like others, just earn the salary which is just enough for survive?
What if I do sth different? Do I have the courage to take that step? I feel like I want to make my life more colourful. I want to experience more. I want to explore more! I need You, God for the decision. Lead me the way!
RANDoM
发觉到我不晓得该如何与人沟通。。。
是兴趣问题？没共同话题？
有时也不知道自己想要什么。。。
开心，伤心，烦恼，不知道与谁分享，也不怎么喜欢特地与人分享，因为他人不感兴趣，他们也不明白，也懒得与人解释。
总是刻意与人划清界线，保持距离。因为保持一个关系这的很累。
再说，以前的付出，可能得到的结果，成了阴影。。。至少保持个距离，就没伤痛。。。。
简单就好。。。
是兴趣问题？没共同话题？
有时也不知道自己想要什么。。。
开心，伤心，烦恼，不知道与谁分享，也不怎么喜欢特地与人分享，因为他人不感兴趣，他们也不明白，也懒得与人解释。
总是刻意与人划清界线，保持距离。因为保持一个关系这的很累。
再说，以前的付出，可能得到的结果，成了阴影。。。至少保持个距离，就没伤痛。。。。
简单就好。。。
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
下一次？
无法下手的COURSEWORKS
不知道该怎么做的FYP
这一些东西，压力与心情也不及于一位朋友的离去
虽然不是很熟，但是曾经也玩乐过，嬉笑过。。。
还记得他是第一位问我：“还有兴趣读PILOT吗？如果有，他可以帮我。”
人总是以为还有下一次
下一次再努力
下一次再见面
下一次再聚会
但是有没有想过“万一没有下一次”呢？
总是失去了，才懂得珍惜。
可是在那一刻，必定会痛恨自己为什么不早一点。
不知道该怎么做的FYP
这一些东西，压力与心情也不及于一位朋友的离去
虽然不是很熟，但是曾经也玩乐过，嬉笑过。。。
还记得他是第一位问我：“还有兴趣读PILOT吗？如果有，他可以帮我。”
人总是以为还有下一次
下一次再努力
下一次再见面
下一次再聚会
但是有没有想过“万一没有下一次”呢？
总是失去了，才懂得珍惜。
可是在那一刻，必定会痛恨自己为什么不早一点。
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Nostalgic*
When I trying to look back the photos I have in FB and Laptop.
Just parts of the photoss.
Thank You!! Guys
Somehow,
It feel so warm, and great to have those moments. =)
Just parts of the photoss.
Thank You!! Guys
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Expectation
Promise
Promise
Promise
What is the point to keep it when the ppl forget or ignore the promise?
In the end, promise will only bring disappointment.
Maybe i just expect too much.
Not long time ago, Rev Ho told me that don't be too stubborn, don't always think that result will be the same as how much effort you put in.
Due to the reason, i put myself in EMO mode most of the time.
Then start to lose calmness.
还真的是在自作自受~~~~
Promise
Promise
What is the point to keep it when the ppl forget or ignore the promise?
In the end, promise will only bring disappointment.
Maybe i just expect too much.
Not long time ago, Rev Ho told me that don't be too stubborn, don't always think that result will be the same as how much effort you put in.
Due to the reason, i put myself in EMO mode most of the time.
Then start to lose calmness.
还真的是在自作自受~~~~
Sunday, March 9, 2014
迟来的"MC"
我也有MC？？？
怎么最近屁股又再吐血？
hmm....
自从3年前的一场车祸，我大便偶尔就会有血，
有时候，还单单大血出来。
之前看医生，他说：“可能是因为我在车祸时，尾脊椎骨受到撞击和压伤，所以屁股才会流血。”
BUT
3年了 〉。〈
!"£$£%$^%$&^*()
莫非本少爷，是个本姑娘？？？
!"£$£%$^%^&*(*)
怎么最近屁股又再吐血？
hmm....
自从3年前的一场车祸，我大便偶尔就会有血，
有时候，还单单大血出来。
之前看医生，他说：“可能是因为我在车祸时，尾脊椎骨受到撞击和压伤，所以屁股才会流血。”
BUT
3年了 〉。〈
!"£$£%$^%$&^*()
莫非本少爷，是个本姑娘？？？
!"£$£%$^%^&*(*)
Thursday, March 6, 2014
God is Order
God is Order.
Everything is under His control.
And everything has its own timing.
As God is Order.
我们要停止紧张的思考和无休止的个人努力，让神来做工。
因为我们再怎么的急，也不能加快神计划的时间。
因为万物都有定时。
Isaiah 30:18-19
"Blessed are all who wait for Him."
"How gracious He will be when you cry for help! As soon as He hears, He will answer you."
这一处的经文，给了我无比大的安慰！=')
神是信实，是公义的，是慈爱的阿爸父。
Thanks!!
I love You!!!
Everything is under His control.
And everything has its own timing.
As God is Order.
我们要停止紧张的思考和无休止的个人努力，让神来做工。
因为我们再怎么的急，也不能加快神计划的时间。
因为万物都有定时。
Isaiah 30:18-19
"Blessed are all who wait for Him."
"How gracious He will be when you cry for help! As soon as He hears, He will answer you."
这一处的经文，给了我无比大的安慰！=')
神是信实，是公义的，是慈爱的阿爸父。
Thanks!!
I love You!!!
Sunday, March 2, 2014
因为什么？
发觉到本人很多时候都没做出什么改变。
说难听点，就是没有长进，只是在原地踏步。
到底这是为什么呢？
是因为怕连累人，所以才体贴，放弃做出改变？
还是因为没勇气做出改变，去学习新的东西，和害怕被人批评，因而自尊心受损？
本人认为两个都是原因。
很多时候，想尝试不一样的东西时，会注意身边人给出的反应。
因为这些反应，所想要尝试的东西往往都没实行到。
是因为时候不对呢？
还是因为遇不到对的人？
hmm....
可能我太在意了，
或是
一直在给自己理由止步向前。
O.o
说难听点，就是没有长进，只是在原地踏步。
到底这是为什么呢？
是因为怕连累人，所以才体贴，放弃做出改变？
还是因为没勇气做出改变，去学习新的东西，和害怕被人批评，因而自尊心受损？
本人认为两个都是原因。
很多时候，想尝试不一样的东西时，会注意身边人给出的反应。
因为这些反应，所想要尝试的东西往往都没实行到。
是因为时候不对呢？
还是因为遇不到对的人？
hmm....
可能我太在意了，
或是
一直在给自己理由止步向前。
O.o
Saturday, March 1, 2014
UNKNOWN
有太多的思想，
有太多的疑问，
一直压抑在心里，没说出来。
总觉得每个人都知道答案，只是我不知道。
莫非是我真的不知道吗？
Common is not common.
Common doesn't mean it must be right.
So which is right? which is wrong?
There is no answer for it.
So how?
Where should I get the answer?
有太多的疑问，
一直压抑在心里，没说出来。
总觉得每个人都知道答案，只是我不知道。
莫非是我真的不知道吗？
Common is not common.
Common doesn't mean it must be right.
So which is right? which is wrong?
There is no answer for it.
So how?
Where should I get the answer?
Saturday, December 28, 2013
<需要勇气>
“成长”是需要一段的时间。
“成长”是需要经历一些事情。
“成长”是需要时间来思考，相通一些事。
面对“成长”，我真的需要很大地勇气来接纳过去，并忘记过去。
需要很大很大很大的勇气来跨出这一小步。
Maybe I still need some little time.
“成长”是需要经历一些事情。
“成长”是需要时间来思考，相通一些事。
面对“成长”，我真的需要很大地勇气来接纳过去，并忘记过去。
需要很大很大很大的勇气来跨出这一小步。
Maybe I still need some little time.
Sunday, December 15, 2013
I'mPossible
This is the world, the ppl I am dealing with.
From there, I found that i am weak!
From there, I found that i am weak!
Feel like always get hurt, even I try my best to be good, treat good to ppl.
Just hope that ppl can treat nice to me in return.
Searching for affirmation and assurance from the one you mind the most.
It is really very difficult, and will be tripped most of the time.
Just hope that ppl can treat nice to me in return.
Searching for affirmation and assurance from the one you mind the most.
It is really very difficult, and will be tripped most of the time.
Does it a attack from devil?
or is me torturing myself??
God, I really need You.
I really need Your advice in my life.
I really need Your blessing in my plan.
or is me torturing myself??
God, I really need You.
I really need Your advice in my life.
I really need Your blessing in my plan.
I desire to hear Your voice.
Please.... Please..... Please don't abandon me.
I really feel scare, especially after having the past experience.
Please HELP me, and GUIDE me.
='(
Please.... Please..... Please don't abandon me.
I really feel scare, especially after having the past experience.
Please HELP me, and GUIDE me.
='(
In You, I'mPossible.
Sunday, October 20, 2013
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