<需要勇气>

“成长”是需要一段的时间。
“成长”是需要经历一些事情。
“成长”是需要时间来思考，相通一些事。


面对“成长”，我真的需要很大地勇气来接纳过去，并忘记过去。
需要很大很大很大的勇气来跨出这一小步。


Maybe I still need some little time.

I'mPossible

This is the world, the ppl I am dealing with.

From there, I found that i am weak!

Feel like always get hurt, even I try my best to be good, treat good to ppl.
Just hope that ppl can treat nice to me in return.

Searching for affirmation and assurance from the one you mind the most.
It is really very difficult, and will be tripped most of the time.

Does it a attack from devil?
or is me torturing myself??

God, I really need You.
I really need Your advice in my life.
I really need Your blessing in my plan.

I desire to hear Your voice.
Please.... Please..... Please don't abandon me.
I really feel scare, especially after having the past experience.
Please HELP me, and GUIDE me.
='(

In You, I'mPossible.

The Question

华源， 你害怕与孤单吗？？？
这问题一直盘旋在我的脑海里。



说实话，我害怕，我也很孤单。








除了哭，我还能做些什么？？？
我应该怎么办？？？




Ngak

以为

看似不是问题，原来那就是问题。

我到底承受得住吗？？？ =/

Stupid

I feel like a bad guy at this moment.
好像剥夺了人家的自由与快乐.
totally feel bad on it. >.<

Habakkuk 2:3

“For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.”

^_^

The Only One I have =)

The ONLY one I have now is JESUS CHRIST !

我输了一切所有，

尤其是我在乎，觉得对我重要的东西，

在追求中，迷失了自我。

现在停顿，想想或许我已用错方式或方法。

或许是太急了。

但都不要紧。

因为至少现在还可以跟阿爸父，哭诉！

Thanks to my mum, my friends, for introducing God to me, and encouraging me! 

家？？？

请问哪里是我家？
诗巫？
还是哪？
为什么今天我回到Sibu, 回到自己的家，却感觉不到回家的feel.
反而觉得这地方很陌生，不再属于我的地方。
那到底哪里才是我的家？
总觉得我无家可归~~~
T.T

生命绝非偶然

我相信生命绝非偶然。
人生中遇到的各种事物，各式各样的人等绝非偶然。
我相信在这其中都有神的安排，他有要我学习的功课。
就好比如说，如果当初我Mommy把我送给我澳洲的大伯当儿子，或许我的英文就不会这么烂！haha
可是同时我的生命就不再一样，我不会遇到现在我遇到的人，我不会认识到我现在认识的人，我的人生经历就再也不一样，或许我也不认识主耶稣。

现在回想起，这一切的一切都好奇妙，当我遇到困难，低落，没信心的时候，神必定会透过我身边的人或文章告诉我不要放弃。

“Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. —1 Corinthians 16:13”

Never Give Up

Because there is always a HOPE.

I would like to share a video with you guys. 

Hope you like it. =)

Speak To No ONE

来一个人，去一个人
总是一个人。。。。

..........

What i want is just the answer

What is going on????

还记得小学一年级的时候，被人冤枉，说我打她。
And it was fine actually, the problem is there is no one believe me that i didn't do it.
Even mum also  don't believe me.
Because of that, mum used hollow iron bar to beat me.
那时候，真的觉得很冤枉!!!

过了几年，感情的事，也莫名其妙的就这样断了。
一直到现在，我还是不明白到底是什么原因。

前几天，也莫名其妙的被人骂或生气。

It is very HURT when someone who mean to you, don't believe you, or angry at you, although you dunno what is going on.

我真的不明白，我到底做错了什么？

And I really hate this FEELING !!!!

WORD

I still remember last time I damn hate to communicate through sms or msn.
As I can't see the person's facial expression, can't hear the talking tone, the way they talked or others.
By just reading the message they send to us, we only can interpret the msg by our own imagination.

For example,
imagine the condition when they wrote the msg,
imagine the way they talk,
and imagine how is their respond or what they do when they talk this to us,
when we read the msg they sent us.

Somehow, our imagination will be affected by our own emotion or feeling, which will cause us misinterpretation or misunderstood with the people.

Then..... the DISASTER occur !!!

There will be a crack in any kind of relationship, when we fail to let ppl know what we meant.
There is no longer trust between ppl.

I admit i am sux in expression, always can't successfully give out my msg to others.
But i have tried my best to do it already, and still..... haiz..
Every times before sending the msg out, i always double check there is nothing wrong with the sentence, so no one will misunderstood it.

In the end, it doesn't change what I wanna change. :(

这时候

总是在痴痴的等，傻傻的等。。。。。。
等到天荒地老。。。。。
总是在期待着。。。。。。


But when there is nothing occur.
I start to feel down.
And become a ZOMBIE.
No more smiling on my face- cool- face (O.O) , ignore everything.
Haih......

I don't know why i will act like this. (T.T)



And i just want to know you more and understand you more. >.<

:')

Be Strong !!!

1 Peter 5:7

Emo...
Emo... 

EMO...

This morning when i woke up, my mood was neither good, nor bad, and still got a bit emo.

It made my heart feel so uncomfortable. =(

At this time, I remembered a Bible verse, which someone wrote to me b4.

"Casting all your worries on Him, because He cares for you." (1 Peter 5:7)

This Bible verse have save me from suffering.

It saves my day. (^.^)

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Most of the time，忘记了数算神给我们祝福，反而去数算 BAD things which occurred on us.

Then it begins ：

Unknown future -----> lead to have negative thought-----> start to have negative imaginations-----> start to worry----> start to lose faith, scare ------> Emo 

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Keep in mind, when you are in bad mood.

Please flash back what you have been through, what have God done in your life.

Counting the blessing God have given you.

You will find that you will no longer Emo.
And start to regain your faith in GOD. =)

让我们一起来学习，在主的话语里一起成长！=)

Grab Him Tightly !!!

It's time to change my thought, and bad habits.

有时候，真的不能太过于执着。
你再怎么执着，不是你的，就是不是你的。
到最后不只是自己受伤，而且还错过了周边美好的事。

有些事不要握得太紧，还有再怎么的worry，也没用， who care???
There is no one will know!
If they do know it, still no one will care about it !
As is none of their business !
So what is the point for doing so?
Wake Up ! Mister Yong !!!

Only God will know my circumstance, He understand my condition !!!
He know my needs.
Only Him, I can rely on !
要紧紧抓住神，凡事要认定他，跟随圣灵的引导，免得失去方向，迷失了自我。